GROWING IN: FAITHFULNESS
Faithfulness...to be FULL of faith. According to Hebrews 11:1, “Faithfulness is a confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” Webster states, faithfulness is steadfast, loyal, or firm in adherence to promises. If you are a follower of Jesus, being faithful should be easy, right? But if we are being honest, it’s not that simple.
Growing up, I learned a lot of life lessons. Love is conditional. My worth depends on other people’s opinion of me and people will always leave. For years this was my reality. I spent a lot of wasted energy trying to fill the holes in my life that were created by other people. Holes that would stay with me...holes that stole my faith.
Eight and a half years ago, I was 38, married and had a 13 year old daughter. We went to TE Church for the first time and I experienced church like never before. That day I heard a message about someone who loves you regardless of what you have done, who says you are worthy regardless of what others think and most importantly about someone who will never leave you. As Pastor Tim talked about a relationship with Jesus and not a religion, my heart began to soften. Those holes I had, started to fill up. My reality began to change, and for the first time in my life I felt hope and peace as I began to have faith in something greater than myself.
I wish I could say my life totally changed that day, but it was only the beginning. Faithfulness is a process. Luke 16:10 says “ If you are faithful in the little things, you will be faithful in the large ones. But if you are dishonest in the little things, you won’t be honest with greater things.” As I began to be faithful in following Jesus, my life changed in all areas. As I was faithful in tithing, my finances were blessed. As I became faithful in reading my bible, I began to follow God’s word and I became a better wife and mother. I began to believe his promises and see myself as he sees me--worthy, loved, forgiven, cherished. The holes that I desperately tried to fill with things of the world were filled with faith.
Faithfulness is a process and one that I work on everyday. Those holes...they are still there, but they are not as empty. I now choose to allow Jesus to fill them, and I put my faith in him.